Friday, February 29, 2008
Today's a leap year day. You had asked me earlier on to approach you for the concert ticket. Since dawn broke, I had been waiting for that moment. I was totally enlightened when I met you, receiving that ticket that would colour my heart with joy.
A day that comes every four years. You had given me a concert ticket today that would lead me into your melodious jukebox. And I will be waiting for the next leap year. I hope to receive another ticket that would guide me to your beautiful jukebox, not one that plays music but your honest words instead.
Morning embraced water whilst downpours spread their love.
The air was cold and merciless when the sun's heat rays beat the ground.
The old construction site appeared before me, bringing back little strips of memories. It might be black and dark. It might be coloured and bright. But no matter what, these are precious memories that no wind can blow away.
8:41 PM
Thursday, February 28, 2008
I walked up the escalator of time through the winding passages of love, finding myself lost upon reaching the top.
You won't know how does it feel to sit behind and only being able to watch your back. You appear in my life like a star in a dark night when the moon is already asleep. I really wanted to take that last broken seat opposite you, but some invisible force just held me back.
During that lesson, I tried to sense your footsteps every single second, hoping that it will gradually get louder. When you appeared at the small corner of my eye, there was of a short burst of joy in me. Then, I called for you, asking a casual question that you didn't respond. I had tried several times, but I seemed to be hidden in a translucent piece of curtain that separated you and me.
After the class, I came to you again with an empty heart that is to be filled by you. I thought of more things to say, but "bye" was the only word that I could articulate. We were separated by an invisible piece of wall. But through the wall, hearing a joyful melody of yours gave me happiness that I had never experience before. Yet, after every sweet verse, there was an answer from him. An answer that knocked me right back. An answer that stabs a dagger right through my heart.
(thank you Justin for the inspiration)
7:40 PM
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Out of the blue-tinted window, the sight of the joyful pair caught my eye. It kept me thinking about you. Your lovely face appeared as a reflection on the window. But as the birds flew off, the beautiful face vanished. I had really wished that you could stay a little longer.
Once again, the chrysanthemum tea I just drank reminded me of you. You have once said that chrysanthemum tea is your favourite drink. Every sip of it was a short moment of happiness.
The pain didn't come from the wound, it came from my heart.
7:28 PM
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
I
have just realised how miserable life is when you are not by my side. Heavy downpours and chilly winds were warnings to a mishap. I couldn't avoid it. I was defeated.
At that frightening split moment, all I could think of was you. Tremendous pain was all over the pathetic me. But you weren't by my side. I didn't get up because of my pride. I got up instantly because of the worry I had about you. I didn't clench my fists because of the pain. I clenched my fists because I didn't want you to be exposed to danger.
The sight of you during recess gave me a short moment of happiness. I took a deep breath and a small step each time as the distance between the bench and my feet got closer. Finally, I plucked up my courage and approached you. My heart was full of regret when I had only asked a silly question and talked no more. I was really at a loss for words as my emotions were mixed. I long for a heartfelt talk with you when the time is appropriate. I hope to let you know that your appearance in my life is a sweet melody that rises above all.
As the night approaches,
I long for the street lights to be turned off,
for your presence alone lights up the whole of my heart.
9:10 PM
Monday, February 25, 2008
Now I am in my dark and quiet room. The moon with your reflection has vanished, leaving some light trails behind. Darkness will soon engulf me as the swimming pool turns off its lights. Four weak light bulbs are trying to give it to their limits, not even aware of the approaching danger.
Poof! They have just disappeared. I can feel that the darkness is drawing near, and I have no strength to fight back. All I need is you, for your presence can bring me the victory.
9:50 PM
"cause both of you are suffering isn't it?"
"she suffers because she feels guilt for you and you suffer because you only feel her guilt and not her love."
"isn't that right?"
......
"cause she's isn't ready to accept love yet."
......
"oh? yeah your are devoted...for you are only curious about her personality. once you know her, will you throw her away? that we cannot be sure and to be honest I am not sure whether she will take this risk...actually these are all my thoughts and not her reactions but I can see she really wants to be very good friends with you only."
8:44 PM
Staring blankly at the 4th stall, the steaming hot rice on my orange plate had turned as cold as ice. I rooted myself on the wooden bench, trying to catch a glimpse of you. The long wait left me freezing under the hot sun.
7:51 PM
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Every breath I inhale in the morning,
is cold and saddening.
Every breath I exhale in the night.
is a pain and lonely sight.
3:52 PM
You might never know. You might never sense. But I'm here, right by your side. Nevertheless, I'm happy. You will shine above all during the concert, and I'll be 1 of the hundreds below your stage. From afar, I listen to your sweet, smoothening voice. From miles away, I catch a glimpse of you.
Bright daylight shines into my room. It heats up the air around me, but not lighting up my day. You're forever busy with something. Do I exist in your world?
I shouldn't be thinking so much as it really depends on fate. But I still want to be a part of your life. Since your appearance in my life, I've become motivated. I am willing to change and improve just because of you. You've made an impact on my life, which can never go away.
樱花缓缓落下，落在你肩膀上的一朵朵小花让你变得好美，好美。
缓缓飘落的雪花，让那乌黑的长发变得无比可爱。
9:42 AM
Saturday, February 23, 2008
I stood through the rain, alone with an umbrella of yours.
I could feel something missing. It was you.
Under the umbrella, one side was empty. You weren't here . Every raindrop was an arrow of agony and loneliness.
I wished that I could have seen you a little longer during recess. But you weren't facing me. That bitter coffee and melancholic music from the piano striked the core of my heart. I could hear the sound of breaking glass and hearts. I could only say that the coffee and the song blended so well.
In the midst of nowhere, your split second presence was sunlight to me, providing warmth and happiness. But your immediate absence was a stab of pain, not external pain but emotional pain. Will you ever notice and sense my love?
10:17 PM
Another blog in this world that supports emotionalism.
I am an ordinary school boy. But I view the world differently just like anyone else.
Emotion - an affective state of consciousness in which joy, sorrow, fear, hate, or the like, is experienced, as distinguished from cognitive and volitional states of consciousness.
LIFE'S MADE UP OF JIGSAW PIECES
Bit by bit, day by day, you experience something new. Joy, sorrow, regret, fear, hate, sad, there is not enough words in this world that can express what you feel. Feelings can come together to you all at once.
LOVE. Everyone in this world has this one and only person that he would want to protect in his life. He would do his best, put in all his soul and stay beside her to support her whenever she's in need. But will she notice it? If she don't, he can only stay quietly by her side and wait...
7:48 PM
